a new quiet has found me. a deep, infinite silence, surrounding me, threatening to swallow me. you know you're in a bad place when you can be lonely in a crowd of faces. even when I speak, interact, go through the motions of every day, that silence is there, just underneath and behind the surface of everything. I can feel it in my bones, in my heart. that abyss of cosmic quiet, waiting patiently for time to do its' dirty trick. I don't try to fend it off anymore. I wrap myself in it. embrace it. make friends with it. and now I feel untouchable by beast or prey. only vulnerable to that grand silence, that's slowly becoming music to my ears.